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Dear _________________________,

First of all, I want you to know that I am not judging you, or pitying you, or scolding you. I don’t pretend to know you well- or even to know you at all. But I do know the look in your eyes, because I have felt the same way. You needn’t worry; it’s not obvious. I have seen that look in the mirror before. I think you are hurt, deep down inside, and you have been for a long time. Maybe you wanted something that never materialised; maybe you only had drips and drabs of it. You may be sick of waiting for it, and you tell yourself that you’ve given up, but you can never stop looking for it all the same. Maybe you’ve papered over the gaping hole, or stopped feeling the ache, because it hurt too much. That is always a mistake. Believe me. I know. I also know you haven’t had an easy childhood. So I’ll say to you what your mother might have said and what your father might have told you.

“Your worth does not depend on how blonde your hair is, or how narrow your waist is, or the size of the gap between your thighs. It is not defined by how many people you sleep with, or how big your boobs and butt are. It is not the sum of your achievements, or how well you apply your makeup. It is not how clever you are, or how confident. Your worth is not how many friends you have, or the number of likes or favourites your pictures and posts get. Do not define yourself by the sweep of your mascara wand, or the price of your clothes or the number of boys that want to fuck you.

Instead, I implore you to live as hard as you can. Stop worrying about other people’s opinions; you don’t have to care about them. Take off your chains. Mental imprisonment- there is nothing worse than that. In fact, you don’t even have to care about this letter. Why would you? But before you tear it up and throw it away, read on.

Please, be brave. Be afraid. Be happy, sad, angry, tender, joyous, delighted, furious, hurt. Be strong. Be vulnerable. One of the bravest things in the world is learning how to be weak. Above all, always remember who you are. If you need reminding, think back to when you were very young.  
If you want to bleach your hair, or work out, or sleep with any and every one, perfect your make up skills, wear designer every day, become the Queen of Instagram and Facebook and Twitter- whatever- then please do so. But do it for you, because you want to. Not because you feel that you have to in order to be seen.

You are worth more than gold. You are worth more than diamonds. You are worth more than jewels in every colour of the rainbow. You are worth more than a whole race track of Ferraris, and a whole town of mansions, and a whole year full of lovers. And why? Because you were born. Simply that. There may be people who don’t see that- that is because, somewhere deep down and long ago, they were hurt too.

You are two halves. You are the laughing girl who can play music and sing and dance and make friends as easily as snapping her fingers, who misses the boys she used to date and cries because she thinks that no one cares about her, but gets up the next day anyway to go out again and smile- and you are the bright soul that goes from continent to continent while your body sleeps, searching for- searching for what? Only you know that.

Just remember- I beg of you- that your worth is not the most important thing about you, and that you are the only one who can unload the chains from your own shoulders.”
Dear Girls
I go to school with someone whose dad lives on the other side of the world and whose mother- put it like this- doesn't have much maternal instinct. As a result, my friend is attention- seeking, dramatic and seems to believe that her self-worth depends solely on her looks and how many people want to sleep with her. To clarify, I have no issue with people- any one- who sleep with lots of people, or have plastic surgery, or wear loads of make-up, or whatever. What I object to is the idea that you have to be a certain way in order to feel loved, and for that reason you may wear a certain jumper or like a certain song- and so on and so on. That is poisonous, social poison, and it drips into all our ears. You should wear that jumper if you like it, or listen to that song if you like it- not because you think that it's the only way to be popular. 
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Hiraeth. At first glance, it is a simple collection of letters- perhaps an unusual collection, if the word isn’t already in your vocabulary.  Roll it around your palate; what does it sound of? Autumn seas, perhaps, the sorrowful rush and sigh of waves that, no matter how hard they try, cannot return the chalk cliffs to what they once were, land under sea. In this you would not be far wrong. Hiraeth is a Welsh word that expresses such depth of emotion that it is difficult, very difficult, to translate it into a language originally designed to tell the other Neanderthals where the ripe fruit is. Hiraeth, with all its undertones and overtones of desperation, its auditory folds as rich as a tapestry of sound, means yearning, mourning, grief for lost places; for a homeland from which you have been irrevocably banished- an unutterable cry for a place to which you cannot return and which maybe existed only as a kind of bright dream. So did the Hebrews, wandering in the desert, cry out for the Promised Land; so too cried the children of revolution, any revolution, anywhere and any when, as they sought their utopia. In a way it is the cry of the whole human race.
OK, guys. I have a confession to make. I was on hiatus. For a number of complicated reasons. And, to my shame, I forgot about dA. Like, entirely. And then I went and made another dA profile, which was under the name of AbigailWells. But then I remembered, after thinking that I was experiencing some extreme deja vu which turned out to be, you know, actual memories. So if anyone happens to see a couple of deviations floating around that look exactly like mine but are under AbigailWells- yeah, that's my other account. Soz, guys. But I am now fully back in this one. Promise.
Do not fall in love before you have learned how not to hate.

Hatred is something you will be taught. It is an easy lesson.

Do not turn yourself into a statue wrapped around with barbed wire. The rusted spikes will gouge your skin, and though you may not feel it, the marks will remain. You may have veins of gold and a heart of living rubies, but people will not see past the metal and the marble. I know. I am Medusa’s work of art.

I was magma once. But Medusa’s gaze turned me to igneous rock, sculpted in my last attitude. I was lava once, before her cold breath hardened me. Before I lost my heart once, twice, three times, then again; before I watched a child die. I was not afraid to love, once.

Hatred is an easy lesson.

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OK, guys. I have a confession to make. I was on hiatus. For a number of complicated reasons. And, to my shame, I forgot about dA. Like, entirely. And then I went and made another dA profile, which was under the name of AbigailWells. But then I remembered, after thinking that I was experiencing some extreme deja vu which turned out to be, you know, actual memories. So if anyone happens to see a couple of deviations floating around that look exactly like mine but are under AbigailWells- yeah, that's my other account. Soz, guys. But I am now fully back in this one. Promise.

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